I need to end this all........ am getting sick of this emotional roller coaster ride... It is just rushing down, down, down, down , down and it's not making its way up....
Think this is just not working and we will need some time to run this through... I am starting to have expectations and the communication just is not there.... Spend days missing you and thinking about you but do you care? I certainly think you don't.
About your dreams and your plans for the future, I don't hear of it from the horse's mouth but rather the information comes from a person I hardly know for a month?!?! Sometimes, I am really amazed and taken aback by my own threshold and tolerance level for this. In fact, I feel like some silly woman whom I always talk about in the past who can just sit there, wait and tolerate all these nonsense.... and the ironic thing is that I laugh at them for their stupidity and this is happening to me! My patience is wearing thin but I still do like you...
Well, it's not like how some robitussin can make the cough go away, and how zyrtec can make my allergy disappear.... you telling me that ... You don't know what you want....does not seem to help matters. How do you know that I don't know what I want? I live for the moment and for now and all i want is you!
Everyone tells me I am stupid, silly, and I deserve better and why waste my tears over someone who can't love me? The reason is simple, "You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back" I have learnt to love freely but you have not... Well, perhaps you don't like me enough and this I do not wish to speculate.... But I do hope that some day you would learn to give freely without any reservations. Am sure, this person in question would be someone who truly deserves you....
Someday, somehow, i believe I will receive all that I have given back :)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Starry, starry night. Paint your palette blue and grey, Look out on a summer's day, With eyes that know the darkness in my soul. Shadows on the hills, Sketch the trees and the daffodils, Catch the breeze and the winter chills, In colors on the snowy linen land.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me, How you suffered for your sanity, How you tried to set them free. They would not listen, they did not know how. Perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry, starry night. Flaming flowers that brightly blaze, Swirling clouds in violet haze, Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue. Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain, Weathered faces lined in pain, Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me, How you suffered for your sanity, How you tried to set them free. They would not listen, they did not know how. Perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you, But still your love was true. And when no hope was left in sight On that starry, starry night, You took your life, as lovers often do. But I could have told you, Vincent, This world was never meant for one As beautiful as you.
Starry, starry night. Portraits hung in empty halls, Frameless head on nameless walls, With eyes that watch the world and can't forget. Like the strangers that you've met, The ragged men in the ragged clothes, The silver thorn of bloody rose, Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me, How you suffered for your sanity, How you tried to set them free. They would not listen, they're not listening still. Perhaps they never will...
GLAMOUR SHOP
Quotes For Thoughts
#1 Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
#2 To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give, that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
#3 Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
#4 Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
#5 Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory!
THE GLAMOUR GIRL
Yanting
15th Jan
age is a secret; for me to know, for you to find out
Institutions that contributed to the present me:
#1 Tung Ling Kindergarten
#2 Haig Girls Pri
#3 Tanjong Katong Girls School
#4 NUS
#5 NTU
HER LIKES
- SHOPPING
- Enjoys being with her friends who brighten up her life and heartens her soul
- Loves food but picky about what she eats and who she eats with
- Reading is a definite mus
- Music ranging from Chinese Pop to Classical (PS/ simply adores Jay Chou
-Plays, movies and basically anything artsy intrigues her
- Karaoke!
- The sun, sand & sea
WISHES
- All my lovable darlings to pass their exams with flying colours and may they realise all their dreams and wishes
-For all around me to be happy and live life to the fullest!!! :)
-The reunification of the puffs real soon... miss the times we spend together and the tons of silly things we do... :(