Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Wow, realised that i have not blogged in more than 2 weeks!! Haha! Anyway, what is new right? Sometimes, i really wonder who visits my blog... maybe some of you would like to leave a line two? At least i know who is reading it right... :)
Lessons have been alright so far, not much of a complaint.. things are still the same.. am still chasing for school badges, dealing with students who answer back and feel that i owe them a living... Believe it or not, i have actually developed a form of immunity to their attitude.. Just tell myself everday that I have a job to do and my main task is not for them to love me and to worship me as if i am Orlinda the Singapore idol.. On this topic.. i seriously don't think i look like her... i think i am PRETTIER! This must be the most thick skin comment i have ever made coz i really think i am the UGLIEST anyone can find... These are some of the insane thoughts that i have flying through my head...
I don't know what is wrong with me and something is eating me up from within.. I lose my temper so easily and get jealous so easily these days... Arrgh... really hate myself when I am like that... really long to see the real Yan Ting back in action! To all my friends especially my lao da, lao er and lao san..thanks for bearing with my nonsense especially when i just lose it so totally... It's just like the tsunami, a weapon of mass destruction...when it comes all of a sudden and leaves soon after. Cheer up lao san, things will be ok.. remember when things are at it worst state, it can only get better! :)
Had an enjoyable time last night with my 4E1 from JYSS.. Am really very very touched that they still remember me and how some of them made an effort to turn up when they realised that i was actually turing up.. You guys made me feel so loved haha! When i see them... i feel that age is really catching up with me... it is amazing how all of them look so different... but what matters is that they are still the same people... and some of them have opened up so much! Jun yang, willy, kelvin, xuan guang, kuan rong, dao yong, desmond, qiu wen qiu hui, aaron. chao zhong, zhen xian, biwei, zhi feng, derwin and zul, thanks for letting me feel that i am not the crappiest teacher after all... that was a real confidence booster thank you :)
Sad pig, remeber to try to cheer your form teacher up ok, she told me that you know about it.... at this moment, i feel that life is not fair...but who said it was to begin with in the first place?!?!?!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Somehow i feel real good when i have the time to write and destress!!!! haha!!! I know how lots of students and my friends hate the concept of having to write but i think it is by far the best way of expressing your feelings without anyone getting to offended... Sometimes, one tends to be rather tactless and fail to put brain into gear before enlarging big mouth... writing gives one the chance to re-read and re-think what one has written before delivering ideas of any nature that might prove offensive to intended audience..
Would just like to take this opportuinity to thank all those (ex students and current ones)who offered me their good wishes on Teachers' Day ! Thanks a million :) All your well-wishes and gifts are deeply appreciated and I will hold them close to my heart.... :) SAD PIG. thanks for being the first to offer me your sincere wishes... You plan has succeeded coz you are indeed the FIRST haha! Sikai, Ihsan and Xu Kang, stop trying to jay-walk across expressway and get yourself killed.. haha!!! I hope that was the first and last time!! :) Anyway, it was really fun catching up with you guys... thanks for sharing with me all your inner thoughts and feelings... remember, all that your teachers have done is"FOR YOUR GOOD!" so try to be more forgiving and understanding okie?Know it sounds cliche but.... you know what i mean.... If you ever need a listening ear, I am just an sms or a phone call away! :)
Why do i feel like i am trying to summarise everything in one blog...
Day 3 of hols was fun! Went to the botanical gardens for some maths trail with Karen, sharon and of course my 4 hunks and my ex students... The lush green trees never fail to make me experience the serenity that i so long for... Sometimes we are just sooo busy or to caught up in whatever we are doing that we fail to pause and take note of the beauty all around us... Shopping with Karen at Bugis has always been a good experience but somehow i was just not in form coz of some unplesant or should i say bothersome thoughts that i had within me... All i can say is... sometimes, it is really difficult to put the past behind you and start anew but one has to try! I am willng to... but what about you?!?!?!
Went for BBQ with my friends at a chalet and errrr... we caused a mini explosion.. no doubt we were shocked but we laughed about it anyway... people from upstairs just ran down and thought we were going to burn the whole entire chalet down or did Osama decide to attack Changi instead haha!
Just feel so lost all of a sudden... why......