I do not know how to write, what to write.. At times like that is the pen really more powerful than the sword... I doubt so... My blog is supposed to be a place where I am free to share my thoughts and jot down how i feel..... Why do i feel that I am being leashed... Why do i feel that I just can't write what I want to for the fear that others would be reading on.... What have I done wrong to deserve this time and time again... there must be lots....
Over the past ten years, I have exposed myself to such hurt and I thought that I would be immune to it since all the visible wounds have healed (now i know what superficially healing is).... I never knew that the ripping apart of an old scar could hurt so much..... Someone tell me how am I supposed to feel, how am i supposed to react?
Michael Buble's HOME is playing in the background and I am doing this on purpose to remind myself of my blunder that I made...The author here has decided to put an end to this chapter that she has been writing for the past 3 years.... The last full stop placed on the chapter by the foolish writer signifies the end of this episode.
Monday, April 14, 2008
WHAT TEACHERS MAKE
The dinner guests were sitting around the table discussing life. One man, a CEO, decided to explain the problem with education. He argued, "What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best option in life was to become a teacher?" He reminded the other dinner guests what they say about teachers: "Those who can, do. Those who can't, teach."
To stress his point he said to another guest; "You're a teacher, Bonnie. Be honest. What do you make?"
Bonnie, who had a reputation for honesty and frankness replied, "You want to know what I make? (She paused for a second, then began...) "Well, I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could. I make a C+ feel like the Congressional Medal of Honor. I make kids sit through 40 minutes of class time when their parents can't make them sit for 5 without an I Pod, Game Cube or movie rental. You want to know what I make?" (She paused again and looked at each and every person at the table.) ''I make kids wonder. I make them question. I make them apologize and mean it. I make them have respect and take responsibility for their actions. I teach them to write and then I make them write. Keyboarding isn't everything. I make them read, read, read. I make them show all their work in math. They use their God given brain, not the man-made calculator. I make my students from other countries learn everything they need to know in English while preserving their unique cultural identity. I make my classroom a place where all my students feel safe. I make my students stand, placing their hand over their heart to say the Pledge. Finally, I make them understand that if they use the gifts they were given, work hard, and follow their hearts, they can succeed in life." (Bonnie paused one last time and then continued.) "Then, when people try to judge me by what I make, with me knowing money isn't everything, I can hold my head up high and pay no attention because they are ignorant...
You want to know what I make? I MAKE A DIFFERENCE . What do you make Mr. CEO?" His jaw dropped, he went silent.
AFTERTHOUGHTS One of my ex-colleagues sent this to me via the email and as I was reading it, i found myself empathising and agreeing with exactly what the author had written.. After my performance bonus was released, I was utterly disappointed, bitter and disillusioned. I HATED everything and BLAMED everyone. In short, I was not somebody whom you would want to encounter and have any dealings with for the fear that I would snap your head off!!
In retrospect, when I look at my guardian angels geared with their sweet acts and words, and the dozens and tons of heartwarming smiles and greetings that I receive from the students every day, I think I have received a Grade A for my performance. Many of those who received the higher monetary rewards, may have never received what I have! Hmmm, time for a little secret of mine that I will share freely now.. I save smses and keep the cards and notes that my students have written and read them when I am feeling down (which is very often). In fact, this is my source of fuel when I need to recharge!
Now for the real question and I am seriously wondering... Have I made a difference in anyone's life?
GLAMOUR SHOP
Quotes For Thoughts
#1 Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
#2 To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give, that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
#3 Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
#4 Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
#5 Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory!
THE GLAMOUR GIRL
Yanting
15th Jan
age is a secret; for me to know, for you to find out
Institutions that contributed to the present me:
#1 Tung Ling Kindergarten
#2 Haig Girls Pri
#3 Tanjong Katong Girls School
#4 NUS
#5 NTU
HER LIKES
- SHOPPING
- Enjoys being with her friends who brighten up her life and heartens her soul
- Loves food but picky about what she eats and who she eats with
- Reading is a definite mus
- Music ranging from Chinese Pop to Classical (PS/ simply adores Jay Chou
-Plays, movies and basically anything artsy intrigues her
- Karaoke!
- The sun, sand & sea
WISHES
- All my lovable darlings to pass their exams with flying colours and may they realise all their dreams and wishes
-For all around me to be happy and live life to the fullest!!! :)
-The reunification of the puffs real soon... miss the times we spend together and the tons of silly things we do... :(