Burnt.. super duper burnt right now..it hurts so badly now am just waiting for my skin to peel... Just got back from SYF rehearsals.. Have to say that it is an agonising but fun 2 days affair... Guess it would have been much tougher without the help of Val and Daphne and the cooperation of my whole choir including the part time singers. To all those at the rehearsals, these are my haertfelt words of gratitude and i mean each and every single word i say so read on..
ALL YOU GUYS are simply marvellous. Whenever i needed any help, there would always be a helping hand somewhere, just waiting to help.Be it when it comes to the collection of food, rubbish, props... you people are always there.. Especially my first rowers.. whenever there is a job that needs to be done, all i have to do is to request and it will definitely be done without much bargaining... Would really like to thank the cool, gentlemen and they should know who they are hehe.. I know you feel that it can be relatively silly at your age to perform at an occasion like SYF but trust me, you don't look silly, in fact, you people look stunning and cool!!!! To me, people who can dance, sing and be comfortable in their own skin are always charismatic and charming!! I realise the efforts of teamwork and many a times, i was almost moved to tears...okok, you may call me a cry baby if you want!!!! Because of you people, i have grown to love the song of "Lao Shu Ai Da Mi" which i soo hate in the past....!!!!There is more to come so we are going to hang in there right? Yah, before i forget i think we all look like Bangalis now....
A good question that Rena possed to me about 4N9.. then you don't enjoy teaching our class mahx? Well, the truth is.. I generally enjoy teaching each and every single class I have when they are cooperative and willing to put in the extra bit of effort... but when they don't.. I sometimes feel like I am teaching myself and embarking on a head bashing journey that nobobdy understands.. So I have to be really honest.. I love all my classes but.. the students do make a difference to the atmosphere? So does that answer your question Rena? :) Not forgetting, for I am only human and thus to claim that i do not make comparision would be a major big LIE right hahaha!!!
Monday, May 15, 2006
Where do I begin.. So much has happened in this past weeks.. Anyway, thousand of apologies for not making the time to blog more often as promised. Have to be honest,time is not really an issue sometimes, I just can't get down to putting my thoughts and life into words... Do forgive me if you find me writing in a distorted manner and you can't catch head or tail. The blog equates to my life and it doesn't occur in logical sequence most of the times.
Before I forget, I guess I have my Bao Mu,Val to thank for the blog skin! She was the one that chose it as she said that this blog skin was created just for me and I must use it!! So thanks a million darling hehe :) I love you too as much as you love me and I don't know what I will do without you keeping track of my schedule and reminding me to do things.... Ya, before i forget. also have to thank Ms Nurul,Ms Ng JT, Ms Wee HM, Ms Poh HL Ms Xu BR, Mr PI, Mr JP, Ms Oh YT,.... for all that you have done be it in a small or big way, you have certainly made a difference.. Some of you have taught me how to love while others have taught me how to accept each and every single one as an individual.. For those whose names I have not mentioned, my love for you is no less it's just that I am tooo lazy to type it out.. so forgive me.. ok.. am very sure at some point of time or other, Your name is bound to appear hahahahah!!! :) Maybe one of my blog entries will be dedicated to my form class and I shall write something personal to each and everyone of them!
Remembered one of the lessons when i went in, and almost cried when i was giving my classic long lecture? It dawned upon me that I am in for it this time.. As the chinese say.. The more you give, the more you will hurt... I can't push away the fact that I am in love with my whole class... and what they do hurt me sometimes and what's more when i see them down and out.. I feel the same way too... Everyday, I freight over the fact if everyone will come back for their O levels next year.. I do want to see all your faces sitting in my class.. I know I might not be the most fantastic teacher but i am willing to try.. do let me know if i can be of any help to any of you.....
Hey you know what, in fact I promised myself that i should stop nagging since last friday... but it's just sooo difficult.... if my nagging can be a constant reminder to anybody and allow someone to wake up then let me be hated!! At times i wonder whether everything is worth it..
Teaching is a head bashing job that nobody understands... not even my buddies....What hurt me most came when my friend started to insult my job...commenting that I spend far to much time with my students.. Why must I always be there for them and listen to them and all...can't i just not care too much about them.. Am I paid extra when I do this.. To them, I am being silly, being a nosey poker..Ok, I know.. I am not in the "in the know" industry, neither am in a industry that people look up to and say wow... I work hard but I don't get any glamour in the end, unlike you guys.. What i want to say is this I love my kids not really the job but my students.. they are the only reason why I wake up in the morning and look forward to coming to school!! I enjoy being with them, love being their listening ear and their shoulder to cry on..Please see some value in what I do...
My friend must have shocked ms darling the other day when she gave me a good lashing over msn the other day ...Had to pretend that I was fine but the truth is I am really sadded by it.. but.. what to do... :( guess our priorities are different now.. no matter what, she will always be my buddy and I will always love her..
I know I am opening up another Pandora Box when I start writing about this as people would think that I am hankering over the award which i am not but this is something that i really feel very strongly about after all that has happened...To all those reading on.. I think if you are given a chance to nominate a teacher for the caring award. You should give true thoughts of what he or she has done for you.. It's not the awards that your teachers hanker over but rather it's the recognition that your teachers need... Just like how you would like us to recngnise you for your efforts when you do well.. We need them too for we are also human... Guess the above paragraph was in relation to what my friend screamed at me for and what happened over the weekend..
On the upside, went to Sebana Cove with the travelling gang over the long weekend.. Had lots of fun and ate sooo much sea food that i think if i were to go for a cholestrol test now.. the results is sure to shoot through the roof hahaha!!!! Lobsters, crabs, mantis prawns, squid, you name it, we ate it! Felt so accomplished though as I marked 3 sets of compositions!!! Hey guys, thanks for the motivation!Without your company, i think even 3 pieces would be a problem! haha. Over the long weekend, I did not get a chance to see my classes and somehow, I do miss them all very much.. the other group of people that I miss would be my choir i guess! Have not seen them for sooo long.... hope they are all doing well and studying hard!!!
Hmm.. sometimes I think I am spending more and more time with my friends and students but less time with my mum and dad.. think i must really make it a point to do something about it soon... Miss mummy's cooking though she seldom cooks.. but mum, I really LOVE your yummy cooking!!! hehe :)
Ok, it's back to work... maybe blog tomorrow? "Yah Yah.. as if" this must be the speech bubble in your head for I can sooo read your mind haha!
GLAMOUR SHOP
Quotes For Thoughts
#1 Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
#2 To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give, that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
#3 Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
#4 Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
#5 Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory!
THE GLAMOUR GIRL
Yanting
15th Jan
age is a secret; for me to know, for you to find out
Institutions that contributed to the present me:
#1 Tung Ling Kindergarten
#2 Haig Girls Pri
#3 Tanjong Katong Girls School
#4 NUS
#5 NTU
HER LIKES
- SHOPPING
- Enjoys being with her friends who brighten up her life and heartens her soul
- Loves food but picky about what she eats and who she eats with
- Reading is a definite mus
- Music ranging from Chinese Pop to Classical (PS/ simply adores Jay Chou
-Plays, movies and basically anything artsy intrigues her
- Karaoke!
- The sun, sand & sea
WISHES
- All my lovable darlings to pass their exams with flying colours and may they realise all their dreams and wishes
-For all around me to be happy and live life to the fullest!!! :)
-The reunification of the puffs real soon... miss the times we spend together and the tons of silly things we do... :(