Hamburger and that was what someone called me years ago and I never can erase that name from my mind....Why do I feel so ugly everyday? :( Am a super piggy.... Wish I could just lose the extra round of spare tyre and flabs in order to be like all my friends around me.....slim and beautiful. Yah I know... I snack and all and my mum is going to attribute it to all the packets of instant noodles and chips that I so love..The MSG and unhealthy preservatives simply gives me the high especially after a tough day at work...
Tried on countless occasions to give it up but it is just so tough...Am already upset and depressive over my weight and to give up all these comfort food is like asking Linus to give up his blanket... Pure torture! There are days when I just starve myself throughout the day but get so famished at night and start refuelling my food-depreived body with all the junk. Perhaps I am really a junk yard.....
Have received numerous "complements" from my mum telling me that I look like a pig and I am gettig fatter and fatter each day and it cuts me like a knife. This happens when I eat a little more or catches me nibbling on my private stash of tidbits. Imagine being stabbed over and over on the same sport... Should be immune but I am not... Love my mum so much that I have to hold my tongue in order not to upset her. I know that she makes such statement because she wants me to lose weight and all but... sigh.... the converse holds true...It makes me hate myself more. When I look at my thigh sometimes, the impulse of grabbing a knife and cutting off the extra pounds of hideous looking fat that makes them look like a tree trunk grips me at times :(
I don't have to be a celebraty.... Just someone who is slim, attractive, healthy and intelligent....
Are looks really that important?
GLAMOUR SHOP
Quotes For Thoughts
#1 Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
#2 To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give, that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
#3 Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
#4 Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
#5 Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory!
THE GLAMOUR GIRL
Yanting
15th Jan
age is a secret; for me to know, for you to find out
Institutions that contributed to the present me:
#1 Tung Ling Kindergarten
#2 Haig Girls Pri
#3 Tanjong Katong Girls School
#4 NUS
#5 NTU
HER LIKES
- SHOPPING
- Enjoys being with her friends who brighten up her life and heartens her soul
- Loves food but picky about what she eats and who she eats with
- Reading is a definite mus
- Music ranging from Chinese Pop to Classical (PS/ simply adores Jay Chou
-Plays, movies and basically anything artsy intrigues her
- Karaoke!
- The sun, sand & sea
WISHES
- All my lovable darlings to pass their exams with flying colours and may they realise all their dreams and wishes
-For all around me to be happy and live life to the fullest!!! :)
-The reunification of the puffs real soon... miss the times we spend together and the tons of silly things we do... :(