Black or White... Wrong or Right.... Sometimes I feel that I really am in no position to judge anyone or anything... In my course of 27 years.. I believe I have made several wrong turns that resulted in unsound decisions and there were times where I can't even diffrentiate what's right from what's wrong... Take for instance, There is an item that I hold very close to my heart and it is priceless... Am I going to give it away just because my very close friend has asked me for it? Somehow I know that I MIGHT regret it but..... the urge to present it to her is so great as I know that would make her elated and she needs it more than I do... Ok, I don't think this is the best example but I gather people reading on would know what I mean..... Really feel helpless sometimes.. I hate to say this but it sounds sooo true.. my hands are tied.. How very often I had wish I could do more for my students, spend more time with them, not only coaching them in their studies but also giving them a helping hand or a listening ear when they need one... I bet there are many who would frown upon the way I teach... in the midst of my English class.. I would share stories with my class.... Many might view it as a waste of time but I guess my purpose is to let them know that we teachers are normal human too... I have my fair share of confusion and mistakes(till now)... Just the title "A teacher" does not make me any less human... Somehow, I just hope that they do not have to make the mistakes that I have made and trod on the path full of scattered pebbles and stones, twigs and sticks that might just hurt them like how they have hurt me.... I have several scars and fresh wounds from travelling these paths... but i so do not regret it, a saddist i am haha! Maybe all of us do need to make mistakes to learn....
I have a feeling that my most beloved choir is facing some tough times too and I have feeling of immense guilt too... coz i can't put my finger on it.... Somehow, I feel that I do not spend enough time with them... My dream is for everyone who loves to sing to join choir but now it seems to have become a chore for everyone.. I don't know if what I have been doing is wrong or right... It pains me to see my members so tired when they come for choir practice and what's more the songs that they are learning now is so much more challanging compared to what they used to sing in the past... i.e. not mainstream pop but more choral music.... Hey my dears, hang in there ok! Practice makes perfect... take sectionals and everything more seriously and everything will fall into place.. Let me know what I can do to make your lives better.... For those who are reading on, if you feel terrible and want to give up, leave a message on my tag-board(you have the right to remain anonymous hehe)... sometimes, it doesn't help when you keep mum coz nobody can help you! :) I might not have the best solution but at least i will try ok?:) We MUST keep our spirit strong ok! United in voice and of course strength!:) We work together, solve the problem and of course, I don't believe in blame-shifting... I miss singing... i sound sooo terrible now .. my greatest fear is that I will sound like that forever..... :(
Wesley, you might not be reading on but just want to say," I know the pressure you are going through and I will explain to her when necessary! Trust me, you have a powerful voice and you are indeed a great singer! So, don't give up"
Lots have happened today... was sooo worried about the poking incident that I slept late last night and woke up only at 6.40!!!! In my blurest days, i actually left my bag at the flag raising groung with all my phone and all!!!!! It was lying there for an hour or so.. It was not until i went back to the staff room after my lesson with 4N7 that i realised it was missing!! hahaThank God, Mr Su found it.... if not... haha!!! It's funny how he recognised my bag by just looking at my mobile!
The amount of class spirit that my darling 4N7 displayed on total defence day simply left me in awe!!!! Everyone did such a great job working together.. Wei An, James and the rest were trying their best too!!!! JP, Din, Lina, Myran and Jun Ting were wonderful and explaining the IPP process and it's functions... Keep it up man!!It is simply exhilarating to be the FT of your class!:)
Before I end, would just like to say.. Thank you to this special someone... I am indeed touched by your sms and as i promised you.. The sms would be a secret that is shared between you and me..:)
GLAMOUR SHOP
Quotes For Thoughts
#1 Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
#2 To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give, that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
#3 Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
#4 Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
#5 Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory!
THE GLAMOUR GIRL
Yanting
15th Jan
age is a secret; for me to know, for you to find out
Institutions that contributed to the present me:
#1 Tung Ling Kindergarten
#2 Haig Girls Pri
#3 Tanjong Katong Girls School
#4 NUS
#5 NTU
HER LIKES
- SHOPPING
- Enjoys being with her friends who brighten up her life and heartens her soul
- Loves food but picky about what she eats and who she eats with
- Reading is a definite mus
- Music ranging from Chinese Pop to Classical (PS/ simply adores Jay Chou
-Plays, movies and basically anything artsy intrigues her
- Karaoke!
- The sun, sand & sea
WISHES
- All my lovable darlings to pass their exams with flying colours and may they realise all their dreams and wishes
-For all around me to be happy and live life to the fullest!!! :)
-The reunification of the puffs real soon... miss the times we spend together and the tons of silly things we do... :(