Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Bumped into Ivan last friday in school and had a short but insightful chat with him... Tears were forming at the brim of my eye, threatening to roll out of its sockets anytime and i really had a hard time controlling it!!(in fact, i am so worried it might haha!! Think Ivan would have been so embarrassed, wouldn't you?) I was really touched by his response to my questions about him joining the nursing profession.. Way to go Ivan!!! Am really touched and blessed to have selfless students like Mimi and yourself.. It's not being a nurse but it's one of the most gratifying jobs.. Satisfaction that can't be mentioned by any units of measurements. It was at this point that i realised that my satisfaction in teaching is not the number of As that my students can produce but rather the knowing that they have grown to be confident people with a sense of morality and responsibilities.. There are times when i so really want to give up but it's ALL of you that keeps me going.. I really wish i am more equip to teach this lesson LIFE...A marvellous but yet at times ugly notion... I really dread to see the ugly side of the human kind but *sigh* it is reflected everyday as a constant reminder that no matter how beautiful something is, there is still an untold side... It's so sad to see how imperfect we can be.. but with imperfection comes improvements right?:)
Yesterday my darling form class was creating a lantern under the leadership of my Chairperson Saifuddin and Vice Chairperson Jun Ting.. of course they had the help of several others like muneer, amelia, surina, JP(who left half way as he claimed he had a session with Dota?!?!?!).. if i have missed out any names, i hope i am forgiven!! :) anyway, anastasia lent a helping hand too!! Thank you very much!!Seeing you guys having so much fun just brought me back to my sec school days.. Everything was soo care-free..
Saifuddin said something that struck me and i guess it holds so true for everyone who is running the rat race and has forgotten about the simpler things in life and the detrimental effects of competition... The fun is in the process, it does not matter whether we emerge champions in the end! Anyway, Prosper Dog looks quite cute with its rabbit-like ears and deep within my hearts, they are already the champions!!!!! 4n7, no matter what, I will be there for you... and i really hope we can build the 4/7 spirit.. Oh yah,before i forget, i was from the class of 4/7 (Four Seben, that was what we called ourselves) too.. 11 years ago haha :)
Ok, i think i have rattled enough and i am really quite tired already... had a realll long day.... supposed i need the rest.. Have to say choir practice was fun as usual! :) Somehow they never fail to brighten my day after a hard day at work... Before I forget, Ivan, I promise that i will try to blog more often!really.. am making a conscious effort ok! :) *sigh* somehow i really wish I could write more about how i am feeling but i figured somethings are better left unsaid.....