Seems that i only blog when i am in a bad mood and big fat tears are rolling down my checks as i am jotting down my thoughts now... Am actually quite a strong person but i dont know why i tear so easily this year.. am so like a cry baby and i hate myself for that... my eyes are filled with salt water and believe it or not, i have been crying for the past 3 hours.. i really wish i could dig a big hole and hide myself in it so that i can avoid everyone and be far from the maddening crowd.... life has its ups and downs and i am someone who can fully understand that... i am at this juncture where i really really really feel like calling it quits... the thoughts seems to be getting stronger but when i read the messages that have been left on my blog.. i am really touched... Thanks a million to all who have left me inspiring messages... Sio, Ngiam, Alfi, Jolene, Wong, Zheng Hon...Thanks a million! It's all these messages that made me decide to hang in there.... Val, thanks for the lovely sms.. i never was pretty to begin with so crying will not actually make me less beautiful :) i seriously don't know how long more i can take it but i will try! The going is really getting tougher and tougher and day after day, i keep telling myself, when things are at its worst, it can only get better... I really need Divine Help... things don't seem to be within my control now or should i say they are.... i never seem to be able to do things right.. so people, u guys are not the only one... i am on the same boat too... I feel like quiting and am really hanging by the thread... am now walking on thin ice and feel that the ground below me is going to give way any moment and will fall into the deep cold waters. I almost typed my resignation letter but i told myself that i will not be a quitter and that is not what i have taught my students...Even if the whole world has given up on me, i will not give up on myself!
My buddy has left for london last sat and would be going on a 10 months sailing trip around the world and i would miss him to pieces.. am starting to feel it already :( Time changes lots of things and i really have no idea how things will change by the time he gets back... for fen, myself mich, we always seem to be able to pick up from wherever we have left things...those silly things we used to do when we were young seem to be so incredibly funny... Days of being young... So i guess youth is the best time in everyone's life and i guess you guys should really live life to the fullest now so that your dairy of youth would be filled with fascinating memories..Before i forget, to another good friend of mine,"Happy Birthday!May God keep you safe in his hands and provide you with his divine help and protection whenever you need them :)"
Something happened in class today and it really tore me to pieces.. I will not elaborate here but i just want to say to this someone "I am not hurt by your naughty acts but hurt by the fact that you don't treasure yourself.. Stop doing this ok. It saddens me...." At this juncture, to all my dears reading my blog, "I am always here to provide you with a listening ear despite the fact that i might have yell at you guys before... Please, talk to me if you have any problems, i might not be able to help but i can listen.."
Siying and gang, thanks for showing me your concern during lab lesson today..... ok, think i should end here will continue another time.. maybe tomorrow?
GLAMOUR SHOP
Quotes For Thoughts
#1 Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.
#2 To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give, that takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
#3 Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you.
#4 Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.
#5 Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory!
THE GLAMOUR GIRL
Yanting
15th Jan
age is a secret; for me to know, for you to find out
Institutions that contributed to the present me:
#1 Tung Ling Kindergarten
#2 Haig Girls Pri
#3 Tanjong Katong Girls School
#4 NUS
#5 NTU
HER LIKES
- SHOPPING
- Enjoys being with her friends who brighten up her life and heartens her soul
- Loves food but picky about what she eats and who she eats with
- Reading is a definite mus
- Music ranging from Chinese Pop to Classical (PS/ simply adores Jay Chou
-Plays, movies and basically anything artsy intrigues her
- Karaoke!
- The sun, sand & sea
WISHES
- All my lovable darlings to pass their exams with flying colours and may they realise all their dreams and wishes
-For all around me to be happy and live life to the fullest!!! :)
-The reunification of the puffs real soon... miss the times we spend together and the tons of silly things we do... :(